Revelation

Well, it hit me like a ton of bricks this weekend. We let my sister Charlotte stay at "her house" with sitters this weekend so we could have some family time. WOW!!! We went to  BLR and had an amazing time of just lying around on the sofa. We (including mom and dad) played video games!! We just layed low and as our princess, oops, I forgot she is now pink power ranger (PPR), says "just chilled out."

By the end of the weekend, I was in tears. Tears of happiness, joy, sorrow, and brokenness. The enormity of the weekend was overwhelming to say the least. The number of times I cried and apologized to my sweet husband. The release was bittersweet. I had no idea what I had been doing to my family by having my sister with us every weekend... I mean, she's my sister, how "bad" can that be, right? Pretty bad. Our marriage has been having some very rocking times. The kids were bickering. PPR wanted nothing to do with Charlotte, even going so far as to tell her to go home on numerous occasions. Even church was affected, because I had a shadow. Everytime I clapped, she clapped. If I raised my hands in praise and worship, so did she. When mine went down...yup, so did hers...

My husband has been so loving and sweet for the past year and a half since Charlotte has become my responsibility and has been staying here on weekends. He has never complained or grumbled, well almost never! LOL! He has done everything to ease my burden and has treated her as one of our children, taking her to Kart Ranch or the movies along with our children. I have been very blessed with an amazing husband.

Now it's my turn to become his wife again. So please pray for us as I decide how to move forward in transitioning Charlotte away from seeing us every weekend. It's time for us to become a real family again. I didn't know what I was missing...